memoirs of a pianist.

I've taken a leave of absence from writing for whatever the case may be. My mind was cluttered to the point of no return. People usually say that God blesses us with another day to live, but I think it goes beyond that. He didn't give us free will so that he could get a laugh out of it. He gave us free will so that we could have options and therefore be able to choose our own paths: the choice to find yourself, or the choice to lose yourself. Each day is another opportunity to get closer to your goals, or just throw them away and live the way you want, which in most cases is reckless and carefree. On my end of the spectrum, the first option sounds much better. The second one is rather ostentatious in one aspect or another. (I've always wanted to use that word in it's correct context, or what I believed to be it's correct context.)

The current question might be, “What does all of this lead up to?” Truth be told, it doesn't lead to specifically just one thing. I could discuss subject matters such as business, health, relationships, school, etc. However, the best choice at this moment would be to discuss love, and the journey to get there; in other words, the pursuit of love. Pursuit is used in that phrase because everyone has a right to love, but only certain people will strive enough to find it.
Please don't take this as me giving advice, or saying that my opinions are 100% correct. This is just part of my story.

Love is a very complicated topic and I might not be the best and most qualified person to discuss it, but I have experienced it. Love is a substance matter that varies for everyone that has or will experience it. There is not a simple definition for love because nothing is that easy. The best way to understand love would be to experience it for yourself, instead of listening to someone else's opinion. Which brings me to the next discussion: why do we take other people's advice on love?

“Everybody can tell you how to do it; they never did it.” - Sean Carter.

How can someone tell you verbatim what to do if they do not fully understand your unique situation. Yes, most cases are the same. The occasional abusive boyfriend who cheats and lies. But many cases are not so. I am not by any means saying to completely avert all advice from people and instead rely on your own intuition even if you don't have much background. My point is, if you are going to take advice, make sure the person knows first hand what they are dealing with. It is very easy to study a textbook and have definitions of words such as heartbreak, but it is also another thing to know how a heartbreak feels.